Apparently, I've had a mystery list of things I've wanted to do or have done. I've never written this list down, or even realized it's been a list! It seems I've had a collection of ideas in my head of random activities for several years and am just now acknowledging them. 

    One, I can successfully french braid my hair. It takes a few tries and my arms start to ache from all the random muscles I use, but I can get it done! Now, I'm not saying it looks great or anything :) It just gets the job done and is easy to recognize as the "style."  CHECK! In fact, it was because of this great feat that I first became aware of this random list.

    Two, make a classy dessert. I made pie once and even wrote about it here, but it wasn't a normal pie...just a random creation that had bits from a pie recipe. Some day, I will make a great dessert that will look pretty, taste great and be something special.

    Third, watch every movie Jared and I own. This one might take a while to finish. There are a few movies Jared has that I just don't feel like watching. And I'm still finishing the stack of movies my mom brought during her last visit, but for some reason, I want to watch every movie in this apartment. This doesn't mean I have to be awake during the whole movie though :) Jared falls asleep during movies all the time, so I can too!

    Fourth, I want to burn one of my school books that I will never use again, or ever have hopes of selling. People talk about throwing all their notes away and burning books in bonfires. I've thrown the notes away, but I haven't burned a book...yet

    Fifth, I want to drive a really, REALLY fast car. Jared got to test drive a Nissan Leaf today, and I am so jealous! But it got me thinking, I want to drive something awesome, and around a track or whatever. I feel the need for speed at times, but poor Bob Dixon (Jared's car) just doesn't cut it...no offense to Bob Dixon. He's been good to us. 


    Sixth, the apartment will one day look better than the day we moved in. I clean the apartment in segments. So the living room and dining room/space looks great, but the kitchen and bathroom has junk all over the counters. One day, ALL of it will be clean and put together and look awesome. Even if only for one day...


    Seventh, I want to own a pair of shoes in every color I like. So far I have pink, blue and green. White, brown and black don't count...everyone has those colors. I will be searching for purple, gold/yellow, silver-ish, and maybe red. 

    I'll stop my list here. I believe this is a good stopping point, because some of those look to be a little impossible. Who would EVER let me drive their fast car!? And I'm not a good enough cook/chef yet to even try making a super cool dessert. Oh well. This is why it's the list I've never acknowledged until now. 

Confessions

    First off, I will confess my gravest of all sins. On my bracket, I put BYU to lose last night. I'm such a terrible person, I know and I admit my faults and I hope to someday be forgiven for this scandal. I suppose I got so caught up in my greed for a bag of MnMs that I had a slip of judgment and strayed from my allegiance to my family and school. I supported BYU though during the game. Even made a sign while we watched the game online.

See! BYU!! Go Jimmer!

    Another confession, I'm already excited to be watching soap operas when I'm home taking care of a baby. (Don't get excited, that's not going to happen for quite a while) I miss watching Days of Our Lives with my aunt, Hayley, and it'll be so fun to watch other people have crazy, insane lives that make me look normal! :) Jared won't watch them with me, so they will my guilty pleasure during the day when he's at work. 

   Third, I don't like Orlando Bloom. There may be people who think he is good looking and a good actor. I think he's just a pretty boy who I don't find very masculine. I believe this very strongly while watching Pirates of the Caribbean. I've had a little marathon as I envy Jared's family going on a cruise to the Caribbean this week. Orlando Bloom is such a girl in all the movies...and it doesn't help he's some weird elf in The Lord of the Rings movies either...  

    At the risk of being attacked the next time people see me, the last confession I will make is:Some of the movies I watch with Jared (his manly movies like Rocky or The Patriot) I really like. I enjoy action/fighting movies. Blood in movies doesn't mind me (I close my eyes if I feel sick) and swearing isn't a big deal to me. To clarify though, I like SOME, not ALL. Godfather will never be among my list of movie suggestions...NEVER!

Too Much Time On My Hands

    Jared and I got married and left Provo, UT before I finished my classes to get my stinkin diploma. So, I am finishing them online, Independent Study from BYU. I was so excited because I could do school stuff at home! All I have to do is go through these lessons online, sometimes I have to write and submit a short paper or do a quiz for a grade; no sweat. I have a midterm or two and a final for each of the three classes. That's less than what I had to do when on campus!

    Things were great. I had all day to get things done! I could work half the day on school (reading, making flashcards, writing papers) and have the rest of the day to have fun! I was loving this whole "Independent" idea! I could choose when and where!

    The problem started when I began to get a life. Jared and I were moving around a lot looking for an internship so he could graduate. Then I started working and didn't have lots of time to work on school, other than weekends. Now that we are settled in Nashville, I've just lost the motivation to work on school!

    Have no fear though, I've been working on finishing them. Just not as much as I should though. Good news though, I finished one class and I just have the final two left. Not including the midterm I took today (and totally passed!), I have a total of 3 exams left. Not too bad!

    I have so many hours here at home where I can dedicate myself to school. Still, I find myself on Facebook constantly. Or I am on Hulu watching some of my favorite shows like Castle or Bones. I even watch re-runs just because I don't want to do school work! I will sit here all day on the couch day dreaming and before I know it, it's around 5 and I start thinking of things to do for dinner!

    Independent Study relies too much on independence. Where are the deadlines! I never thought I would say this, but sometimes, I feel the need to go to a class or to the library to study! There are too many distractions here at home. 

    For example, all I can think about now is cleaning. Thinking about how I'm going to move everything out of the way so I can vacuum. Then I think about making the bed all nice and pretty with the decorative pillows and such. Then I sit on the couch and realize the blankets are all over the place, so I take the time to fold them carefully. 

    This morning after I did a quick review of the material I would be tested on, I put in a movie and started dazing off. I got hungry about 11:15, so I made macaroni and cheese. Facebook was always open and I have my Gmail open too so I can send little messages to Jared while he is at work.

    But now I can enjoy a short break before figuring out a whole new system. I have to factor in work in a few weeks. Even though it is only 20 hours, and some of those are on Saturday, that is less time for me to work on school. Guess I'll have to buckle down...

    ....Nah, I'm sure I'll still find time to procrastinate! I have til May to finish everything! No sweat!